I’ve
come to a handful of conclusions & directions about my likely
destinations after getting out of that prison known as SHCC. Even
now, nearly a month out, I awake each morning hardly believing I was
able to retain my sanity while I was incarcerated. If people just
knew how awful it was being
in that ‘facility’ where 90+ percent of the residents were
nothing better than slack-jawed, mouth-breathing droolers. The
working staff (not ‘management’), most of who were very
temporary, were for the most part very good and very
quiet about the ‘medical’ treatment of the residents. That last
day when my leaving became a certainty was when the nurses became
open and honest with me. They knew the actual reality of the
situation I was forced into enduring would have been totally
intolerable if I had known the facts with no recourse available.
The routine drugging of the
residents simply re-enforced the ‘need’ to keep otherwise
functional human beings locked into that place. Why? I can only
speculate, however having my former experience with Macclenney
Nursing & Rehab, sheer sociopathic greed by management could be
the most likely cause. To this day, all those years of SHCC and I
still don’t know who the CEO was?
At
$98,000 a year for the 8’ x 12’ section of a double occupancy
cell (additional fees for other ‘stuff’) with no access to
anything even slightly engaging, life under heavy tranquilizers would
seem better. However, if you were to see what the poor victims were
like day after endless day, you could truly appreciate why the
working staff were so often very temporary. Poor, lost souls, some
openly praying for the Lord to take them, many loudly cursing the
staff, most common of all were those with thousand-yard stares. Too
drugged, too numb, just blobs of what once were mothers and fathers
with lives, hopes, and dreams... ...and too far gone in the drugs to
ever be even partly human again. Yes, the drugs ARE permanently
disabling.
*****
I just accidentally erased
three, well thought-out pages of this missive. They took me an hour +
a piece to write.
I'm gonna go outside and eat
worms...
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